I never expected you to go. Not like this. Not when everything is just so right.

This is harder to bear than the usual separation I have endured in the past. You have been a force in my life for more than three years. In fact, you are where my world revolved around. I cannot imagine life without you this sudden. I have in the past attempted to let you go, but your pull always leads me back. I never noticed as time passed by that I have spent more time than I expected sailing through rough times with you and relishing the victory of overcoming those once unfriendly seas.

I do not want to live without you. I feel so lost just thinking how you'll be gone. Imagine just missing the familiar routines that we go through each time our roads meet? Everything will turn so hollow. A vacuum will erode the sense of security I have established because of you. But do I have a choice if you are so bent on departing?

Though I cannot afford to curl up and die, I want to succumb in your arms and wail my despair, if just for an instant. How could you leave this way? How could you choose abandonment when you have just turned my life around?

And yet, I have to accept that you are who you are. We never owned each other. We never had even a short leash to each other to thwart our diverging ways... You had promoted me to enjoy happiness, growth and formidability. You had gotten me to appreciate how challenges could be turned to achievements. And for one last test of character, I guess I would have to employ the ways you had helped me develop about myself to overcome this threatening certainty that is about to lead us to our real destinies.

Off you go. I'll find my way. If not back to you, perhaps back to myself.